Monday, September 27, 2004


Someone on a message board wrote:
"The most beautiful expression of consciousness is Love."

To which I answered:

This sounds grand, but it does not stand the test of human experience.

The emotion of love leads to the profoundest disappointment and disillusionment. It opens us up to being shocked to our very core when we see the darkest side of Human nature. It clouds clear thinking more often than not. Love leads to disappointment with people because it attaches us to them and causes us to be for too identified with their behavior, successes, failures, etc.

Love tends to be impatient and wanting what the lover thinks is best for the beloved ASAP.

No, I have found that the noblest, and most enduring, turn of mind and heart is dispassionate, but unwavering, concern and dedicatiion to the slow but sure urging of Humankind on their evolutionary way. This allows each individual, People, nation and Humankind as a whole to grow as they will, in their own time, at their own pace, not according to my time clock and not in accordance with my visions (aka fantasies).

To be released from the passion of love allows me to be patient and accepting of the other, not to want to be loved back, not to be hurt or disappointed when turns of events are not as I would have them.

I am not the victim of the illusions of love. I, therefore, am not disillusioned.

I do not, therefore, fritter energy away on obsessing. Love is nothing, if not obsessive. Nor am I riveted to one place by the brooding nature of love's obsessions.

I am free to labor for others according to my abilities. They are free to decide if my labors suit them or not.

Sunday, September 05, 2004


The summer of 5764 has been a wonderful time for the Dotan family, B"H.

Dani'el and I celebrated urr 20th wedding anniversary of June 20 at the Stupp's Vegetarian Restaurant on Moshav Amirim.

Our son gradutated from Yeshivah high school at the end of June. The graduation ceremony was lovely.

He then turned eighteen on the 18th of Menachem Av.

On the second of September he began a one-year, pre-army leadership training course in a prestigious mekhinah.

I turned 47 on Rosh Chodesh Elul. My books and writings have come to the attention of mathematicians, as well linguists, around the world and are garnering increasing praise. I am currently writing the remaining 4 1/2 if the six-book interrelated series that I began to write some two years ago.

Our daughter was married to a lovely young Chassid on the 15th of Elul and moved to Me'ah She'arim.


May we all know joy and nachat.

Doreen Ellen Bell-Dotan, Tzfat, ISRAEL