Monday, September 15, 2014


Imagine, if You Will, Joy as Durable as Diamond and as Resilient as Steel

Like many well-meaning Jews who get deeply into our Tradition, I was being taught the ways of Salvation, Redemption, Healing and Comfort.

It felt wrong, essentially wrong, unacceptably wrong.

Salvation presupposes trouble. Redemption presupposes having fallen. Healing presupposes illness and woundedness. Comfort presupposes discomfort.

No. No. And No.



I know that Happiness is the Way. But Happiness has to be the Be-All, not just the End-All.



The problem with Joy, such as it exists now and has for all the history that any of us can remember or heard about, is that Joy is spiritual. It is ephemeral. It is fragile. It takes a supreme Act of Will to induce Joy in the Heart and then, for all our gargantuan efforts, it dissipates all too quickly and easily.



We idealize the natural and spontaneous Joy of Babies and Children. We ignore the fact that their Joy quickly dissolves into long fits of miserable tears and heart-wrenching, eardrum-rending, peace shattering wails.

When two things as flimsy as Happiness and a balloon are put together, the unpleasant outcome is assured. A moment's delight is replaced by ongoing tears.



The reason why those who are running our vital systems work off the platform of misery is because misery is durable. Misery is dependable. You can bank on misery. Joy, in juxtaposition, isn't worth flying on the bourse, because it is so unstable. It cannot be considered a commodity. It cannot be considered a natural resource.



And therein, precisely, is the problem.



We need Joy that is as durable as diamond, as resilient as steel as incorruptible as gold. Only then will it be a something we can build with, something we can bank on, something that we can build our civilization with and on. Joy has to be substantial and fungible and dependable and monumental.



We need to create substantial, really real Joy. We need to go far further than creating organic co-ops, although they are the sine qua non, the afflatus and the paradigm for an entire Human civilization built on Joy. We need to be able to construct magnificently impressive skycaressers from Joy. It has to be that, well, concrete. Our roads need to be constructed of Joy. Policy has to be determined in Joy. Justice has to be ministered in Wise Humor and Wise Humor needs to be the Laws on the Books. Joy has to be bankable and we need to know it's going to pay dividends and collect interest and compound interest.



The Promise cannot be redemption for our degradation or salve for our wounds or comfort for our troubles and grief or the breaking of our shackles – all because we lived in a world in which Joy was all too rarefied and ephemeral. We need substantial, actual Joy that we can build our World with and in. We need Joy as tangible and actual as the iron chains from which shackles were forged. Material Joy has to replace material misery. The legacy we give to our Children must be our Joy that they can then build further on. We don't need, and can't live, in a world in which Joy is spiritual and ephemeral, while misery is actual and durable. We need Material Joy.



When I came upon this vision, I knew that every good Soul would agree with me. I knew that if a Cosmic Pow-Wow were to be called to congress calling for a Creation characterized by material, durable, substantial, dependable, constructable and fungible Joy, the vote of Ay! would be overwhelming.


Tuesday, September 09, 2014

Born in Sin?

Like many ideas that comprise the body of Christianity, this idea is the result of mistranslation of Hebrew and the inadequacy of other languages to support the layers of meaning of alpha-numeric Hebrew.

The Hebrew word that is translated, poorly, as 'sin', chet, actually means missing the mark. It is equal in value to the work chai, which means alive. From there, the misunderstanding went further afield and developed into an entire, unfortunate, view of Humanity.

The truth of the matter is this: We are the distillation and repository of all of the thoughts, feelings, hopes, dreams, prayers and deeds of all of our Ancestors. We enjoy, in the form of our appearance, our abilities, our natures, our intellect, our experiences that which they accomplished to the satisfaction of their Souls in their lifetimes. To the extent that they gave over to the very best of their ability their Soul's gift to Creation, we enjoy their accomplishments as our very being and all of our attributes and the experiences we will experience in our Lifetime. To the extent that they were not able to complete their mission during their lifetimes, we are entrusted with the fulfillment of their Soul. This is a most Sacred mission vested in us. It is our Life.

When we experience pain and/or disquietude of any kind, we are getting a signal from one or more of our Fathers and mothers saying: Hey, I need Your help here. I need you to do what I could not do. I need you to clear up a debt for me. This situation is that Opportunity. Please seize it! The type of pain we experience, be it in a specific part of our Body, in our Psyche, in the form of a Relationship or in a Situation is always indicative of the Opportunity we are being granted for fulfilling our Ancestors' hopes for a perfect world.

Sadness is always Grieving and Grief is always a call for help from the Grave. Those who feel the profoundest Sadness will attest that they often feel buried alive in their sadness. This is not an allegory. This is a statement of fact. Sadness is an echoing call from one or more of our Fathers and Mothers, by whose merit we live, for assistance in rectifying something. Any sadness we experience is the Grief of a Soul waiting for fulfillment of their Vision of a perfected Creation.

It is, therefore, not only necessary to carry out as many Acts of LovingKindness as this world, The World That is All Together Opportunity, grants us. It is necessary to will the Heart to be Joyful. Joy drives away the Grief of the Grave. Joy is an act of Supernal Will for the sake of the Creation throughout all of the Generations.
It are behooved to become zany. Yup. Zaniness is great Wisdom. When we are historically funny, we make not only those who are alive in our Generation laugh, we cause our Ancestors laugh with us. Laughter echoes throughout all of the Generations. In fact, the same word chai in Hebrew that means alive is also equal to the value of the word HadHed, which means echo. Those who laugh frequently for the sake of making Joy reign in Creation begin to hear the echoes of the peals of Laughter throughout all the generations and throughout the world reverberating within them. They hear the peals of Laughter of the Children of all the Generations within their own Bodies. And, in experiencing this again and again, one begins to hear, faint at first, but then it gains in momentum, the greatest Laugh of All - the correct pronunciation of God's Great Name pronounced only by the High Priest in the Holy of Holies on the Day of Atonement.

I promise you, this is no fable and these are not allegories. All of what I have written here is absolutely and literally True as stated. This is the Secret of the Resurrection. And now You know it too.

Sunday, September 07, 2014

Revenge

Government, the Police and the Courts systems are all the expression of the collective thirst for the blood of revenge.
Those who want them eradicated from existence could do no better than to wipe all desire for revenge from their Hearts and keep all calls for revenge from issuing from their mouths and fingertips.
Those who call for revenge against the Systems, which are nothing but our collective desire bloodthirstiness for revenge, are feeding and perpetuating those Systems.
There are infinite ways to rectify and bring about justice without punishment and pain.
When we begin to seek those ways and implement them, we will be surprised how the current systems vanish in the same measure as our desire for revenge melts away.
ב"ה

נקמה

הממשלה, מערכת המשפטים ומערכת האכיפה הן הבטויים של הצמאון הקולקטיבי בנקמה.
הדבר הכי חזק שאנו יכולים לעשות לבטל את המערכות ההן הוא לוותר על כל דרישת נקמה ולהסיר כל רצון לנקמה מבלנו. יש אין ספור דרכים להשכין צדק בלי עונש וסבל.
הקורא לנקמה נגד אותן המערכות בעצם מחזק אותן.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

ב"ה

חורבן בתי המקדש

המילה בית היא חילוף של המילה בתי. האמירה חורבן בית מכריחה את האמירה חורבן בתי בו-זמנית.
היש קטסטרופה יותר נוראית מאשר חורבן בתי? אין דבר יותר כואב. אין דבר יותר קורע את הלב ומוציא את המעיים.

איך דבר כזה יוכל להתרחש בעולם?

כשיהודים השונאים את הנקבה מהרהרים בכל מיני השמצות בבתי המדרש נגד בנות הם מעצימים את השנאה נגד הבנות בבריאה ובתודעתם.
בזמן המשגל, אותם היהודים השונאים את הנקבה, ובכלל זה אותה הנקבה איתה הוא נאלץ, לדעתו, "לעשות מצווה בלית ברירה" (אריין ארויס, כמו שאומרים) יוצרים זרע. הזרע נוצר מהמחשבות במח הזכר בשעת המשגל. תאי הזרע הם המחשבות העיוניות של הזכר שבשעת ההפריה יתחילו להתפתח לעובר ברחם אמו. כתוצאה משינון המחשבות השליליות לגבי הנקבה, נולדים בנים בהם טבועה שנאת הנקבה ובנות נולדות עם שנאה עצמית מולדת.

חורבן הבית הראשון היה כנגד ההשמצות אודות לילית שהרהרו בהם.
חורבן הבית השני היה כנגד ההשמצות אודות חוה שהרהרו בהם.
הבית השלישי אינו מוקם כי עד היום הזה עדין מיחסים לבנות ישראל כל מיני פגמים ובכך מקללים את בנות ישראל שהן המקדש.

והנה אמתו של הדבר:

לילית = 480 = מולדת = תלמוד

חוה = 19 = הוגה

לילית חוה = 499 = גופי הנשמה = כל מקדש

שרה = 505 = לילית וחוה = הלכה למעשה

ישראל = 541 = אלה שרה = אלה לילית וחוה
= אמך

בני ישראל = 603 = משה רבנו = אלה בני לילית וחוה

הבית השלישי הוא תקון חורבן הבנות. אני ממליצה לכם, בני ישראל, להתחיל לבנות אותו ראשית כל בלבבותיכם.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

OUTSTANDING MORAL DEBTS

There are a number of people who hold "outstanding moral debts" against me and their claims are justified. Dan and I went out to dinner this evening and, I admit; a pall of sadness began to descend upon me thinking about this. I thought: How can I be in a state of Joy when there are people who I love who are justifiably angry at me and I don't see a way to make amends? What right do I have to be Happy if others are unhappy because of things I did?
And then I saw in a flash: In a state of sadness, I most certainly will not be on a level of insight and "energy" high enough to be able to generate a solution. All I will do is be sad as a penance, but that will bring about no rectification.
THE ONLY CHANCE FOR RECTIFICATION TO OCCUR IS IF I WILL MYSELF TO BE JOYOUS DESPITE THE MORAL DEBTS I OWE.
Only then will I have a hope of reaching the Creative Moral Intelligence needed to find a solution to these problems.
We need to attain and sustain Joy not because it feels good. I'll say that again. We need to attain and sustain Joy not because it feels good.
We need to sustain Joy because it is our only chance of reaching the Wisdom necessary to rectify our Worlds.
I am not talking about being in a state of blissful ignorance. I am talking about being on the highest level of creative moral intelligence that we can so as to be able to see the solutions to problems that we cannot see from lower levels.
God *doesn't* require that we suffer and make ourselves miserable creatures because we have made mistakes stemming from the fact that we were unhappy. That thinking is wholly in error, it's cruel and it's useless and history proves that it does not fix anything.
We need to attain JOY not for ourselves but for the Creation.
ב"ה

יום הלדת - פרשת נח


בעברית תקינה האות ה' במילה 'הודלת' מנוקדת בקבוץ, ולא שורק. לכן אין בה האות ו והיא כתובה כך: הלדת. כאשר אנו מתעסקים בחילופים, עלינו לאיית נכונה את המילם כדי לגלות את האמת הטמונה והנסתרת.

כמו כן, כשאני כותבת אות סופית, אני מתכוונת לערך של האות הסופית.



יום הלדת = 616 + 439 = 1055 = 56 = נו = שישו לדתה

= התורה לדתה = שישו גאלתה



ביום הלדת = 1057 = 58 = בנו = נבו = נח = ביום גאלתה



ביום הלדתך = 1557 = 558 = חנך = מחיך = כל הגן



עכשיו, תקראו את פרשת נח שוב והפעם עם אור השמחה והאהבה בלב ובעיניים ועם חיוך על הפנים עבור הילוד הנולד היום ושישו את גאולתכם. במקום לדמיין לכם "מבול" תראו מלבו.
JOY, NOT LOVE, IS THE ANSWER

People say love is the answer. Love is not the answer. It is common knowledge and everyday observance that people often hurt the ones they love the most most terribly, most cruelly and most especially.
The love of miserable people is terrible and cruel, intense though it may be.
Unconditional Happiness is the answer.
It is a fantasy to think we are capable of Unconditional Love without first having the Self-mastery to induce and sustain Joy in our Hearts at will.
Love is not a matter of free choice. We "fall in love". We fall in love with those who we do, often despite knowing that that love is toxic and will come to naught but misery.
We love our children because they were given to us.
We are attracted to whom and what we are attracted without active participation. Yes, we "fall" in love - often in a blind stumble.
A spurned or unrequited lover may strike out in bitterness and even violence and revenge.
The ability to attain and sustain unconditional Joy in the heart, on the other hand, is never haphazard and never just occurs to us. We never fall into ongoing, unconditional Happiness. Happiness that is independent of circumstances and does not waver with the vagaries of fortune is always an act of Supreme Will and Self-discipline.
It is only when we have mastered our Hearts to the extent necessary to attain and sustain Joy in the heart that we can be trusted to love in a healthy and supportive manner.
Those who are in a state of Joy are never driven to seek revenge or harm. We may be madly in love. We may be blindly in love.
Joy, on the other hand, gives us wisdom and insight. No one was ever driven to the brink of destruction or Self-destruction by Joy.
No one ever said: Joy hurts.
It may be said that those who act obsessively do not really love and that is true, but what is preventing them from really loving is their misery.
The beginning of Wisdom is Joy, not Love. From the state of Joy, true, constant, mature, healthy Love follows as a matter of course. Rarely does Love create ongoing Happiness in and of itself in a person who is not possessed of Joy.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

ב"ה

ההגשמה יש מאין

בראשית שמות ויקרא במדבר דברים
= 913 + 746 + 317 + 248 + 816 = 3040 = 43 = גיל = גדול

הגשמה = 353 = שמחה = שבח גדול = יש גיל
= יש גדול = יש בראשית שמות ויקרא במדבר דברים
= 3350 = 353

הגשמה הגשמה = שמחה שמחה = 706 = עולם

ההגשמה = 358 = השמחה = משיח = ספר חי
= צהלה צהלה לכל חי

ההגשמחה הגשמה = 358 + 353 = 711 = העולם = אשתי = אין
= הגשמה משיח = הגשמה השמחה = שמחה משיח

ההגשמה ההגשמה = 716 = השמחה השמחה = קיום = בן דוד

ממש = 380 = מספר = ישע = לב שמח

כל הסודות בענין הוצאת יש מאין וביאת משיח נמצאים ברשימה זו. המבין השמח בחלקו יבין.

בברכות!
ב"ה

צמצום

צמ = 130 = קל = צהלה

צום = 696 = שמח שמח

צמצום = 826 = צהלה שמח שמח
ב"ה

ספר התורה כולו שמות של ה' יתברך

שמות = 746 = את משה = אתה ספר = את הספר = שעשוע

ספר = 340 = מכפר = מיצר = נצר
= צהלה צהלה לכל = צהלה עוד צהלה

התורה = 616 = יום = שישו = שושי

כל המילים והשמות בתורה מורכבים מהמונחים שפרושם שמחה. כל הניקוד הוא קולות הצחוק.

השם הויה הוא שיא הצחוק.

ב"ה

רחמים

רחמ = 248 = רמ"ח = חמר = מצחיק = על מצחי = על נצח
= במדבר = אשר מעולם = 1247 = 248 = עולם ישראל
= עולם שיא צחוק הויה

ים = 610 = יתר = האדם = עמך = דרות = אתה צוחק
= את הצחוק

רחמים = 858 = מצחיק האדם = מצחיק עמך
= מצחיק דרות = עמך עולם שיא צחוק הויה
= 1857 = 858 = עמך עולם שיא צחוק כל בית ישראל יחד
= 2856 = 858 = האדם עולם שיא צחוק הויה